It was not until late afternoon that I saw the news and all that was going on in Moore. I was glued to the images. While I made snacks for my kids, you were hiding for your lives in closets and hallways. How can two things so opposite be happening simultaneously? I don't think I will ever get used to that idea.
I pulled my 6 year old daughter and my 4 year old son around me. We sat on the floor and I told them that a bad storm had hurt some houses and people in your city. The three of us held hands together and prayed for you.
We prayed for your homes to be safe, we prayed for your neighbors to be uninjured, and we prayed for all of your children to return home. I'm pretty sure that my daughter prayed for your pets too. Everything. We prayed for everything. Simple words spoken with childlike faith.
My son looked at me after we had finished and said, "Mommy, I need to put on my Batman costume and go save those people."
I cried. Sure, his sweet heart is enough to make a mama tear up, but mostly I cried because I wanted the same thing. I wanted to put on a cape and a mask and go save you. Move every fallen wall & tossed aside car to pull the injured out. I wanted to save you today. To bring school children trapped under rubble back into your arms.
Right now I am in my dry, warm house. My dogs are at my feet, my pictures are hanging on my wall and my children and husband are asleep down the hallway. And I am crying hot tears because I know so many of you didn't get the miracle you were hoping for today.
There is nothing I can do to erase the terror, put your walls back together or lessen the pain of lives lost. I can't imagine the suffocating fear of a parent whose child was in the school. Unfortunately some of you don't have to imagine that pain. You are feeling it right now.
There are so many things that I can't say. I can't say that it will all be better tomorrow when you wake up. I can't say that time heals everything. I can't tell you I know what you are going through.
But I can tell you this: All across this nation there are people wishing they could put on Batman costumes and save you from this tragedy. All across this nation people are praying & thinking of you. Hearts are aching while quietly watching television screens hoping for good news.
This is no time to discuss the theology of why things happen, but I do believe Jesus is in Moore tonight. Walking your streets & sitting with those who are grieving. He doesn't wear a mask or cape, but He brings tremendous comfort in the midst of insurmountable pain.
I hope on this very somber night, when all your hope seems lost, that you find Him walking down your street. That you put your head on His shoulder and cry your hot tears.
While I can't wish you sweet dreams tonight, I wish you peace. May you see miracles before your very eyes. And most of all, know that you are not alone on this stormy night.
From a mom who would give anything for a Batman costume,
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